collaredexperimentation:

 Useless. Useless little Fool, What lies you say they spoke, They said None. They said Oh how Proud she was of me, Only to become their Slut, Only to be a Whore.

Not Lies.

Not lies… I know they’re true. As true as they get, as heart breaking as it sounds.

Friends are People.

Friends are Here… But they don’t See past me sometimes.

I don’t Want friends.

I don’t Want friends because they Hurt. They Hurt.

They’ll gain their wings, and Leave. They’ll only cause Tears and Heartache.

I’m Afraid to Lose them, Even though I push Those who get too close away…

Clyde came too close.

He came too close and I Shoved him.

I Shoved him away and now,

Now he won’t forgive me this time. Oh no, He won’t. He doesn’t Know about this, And I don’t Want him to Know.

No, No I don’t Want him to feel Pity, Not for someone he Loathes. No.

They aren’t horrible, They’re doing their Job. They Tested me. They wanted to See and they Experimented as they Normally Did.

How horrible are they to test?

How horrible are they to See how Far they could Push me until I Broke?

-He muttered, fur standing on end when he was held. Hi tears flooding against Vee’s tummy as he curled around him-

“None of it is true because they’re the ones who forced you to be like that. They’re horrible people because not only could you have had a peaceful life, they would have been nowhere to be seen.

They forced this on you. None of it is your fault. Stop blaming yourself because of their sick, twisted minds. Don’t you realize that blaming yourself is exactly what they wanted you to do? Do you know what happens to people that do that in my world? They’re arrested, put on trial and most likely than not given a death sentence.”

Rebecca’s arms were shaking as she held Heat close, a gentle hand holding his head against her chest.

“If they’re your friends, they wouldn’t feel ‘pity’. They would try to do all they could to help you get past this. They wouldn’t leave when you need them. If you know them, they wouldn’t leave.”

“They’ll only leave if you push them away like this, Heat, and you know it. Those scientists wanted you to push them away. They wanted you to become miserable like this.

They test and test and test but that doesn’t mean they can’t be fucking liars. It doesn’t mean that they didn’t want to kill you through indirect means. Just look at their behavior. I dare you to tell me they didn’t want you dead.

If they had succeeded, don’t you think they would have had free reign on your friends and family?”