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Useless. Useless little Fool, What lies you say they spoke, They said None. They said Oh how Proud she was of me, Only to become their Slut, Only to be a Whore.

Not Lies.

Not lies… I know they’re true. As true as they get, as heart breaking as it sounds.

Friends are People.

Friends are Here… But they don’t See past me sometimes.

I don’t Want friends.

I don’t Want friends because they Hurt. They Hurt.

They’ll gain their wings, and Leave. They’ll only cause Tears and Heartache.

I’m Afraid to Lose them, Even though I push Those who get too close away…

Clyde came too close.

He came too close and I Shoved him.

I Shoved him away and now,

Now he won’t forgive me this time. Oh no, He won’t. He doesn’t Know about this, And I don’t Want him to Know.

No, No I don’t Want him to feel Pity, Not for someone he Loathes. No.

They aren’t horrible, They’re doing their Job. They Tested me. They wanted to See and they Experimented as they Normally Did.

How horrible are they to test?

How horrible are they to See how Far they could Push me until I Broke?

-He muttered, fur standing on end when he was held. Hi tears flooding against Vee’s tummy as he curled around him-

“None of it is true because they’re the ones who forced you to be like that. They’re horrible people because not only could you have had a peaceful life, they would have been nowhere to be seen.

They forced this on you. None of it is your fault. Stop blaming yourself because of their sick, twisted minds. Don’t you realize that blaming yourself is exactly what they wanted you to do? Do you know what happens to people that do that in my world? They’re arrested, put on trial and most likely than not given a death sentence.”

Rebecca’s arms were shaking as she held Heat close, a gentle hand holding his head against her chest.

“If they’re your friends, they wouldn’t feel ‘pity’. They would try to do all they could to help you get past this. They wouldn’t leave when you need them. If you know them, they wouldn’t leave.”

“They’ll only leave if you push them away like this, Heat, and you know it. Those scientists wanted you to push them away. They wanted you to become miserable like this.

They test and test and test but that doesn’t mean they can’t be fucking liars. It doesn’t mean that they didn’t want to kill you through indirect means. Just look at their behavior. I dare you to tell me they didn’t want you dead.

If they had succeeded, don’t you think they would have had free reign on your friends and family?”

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I Can’t…

-He said in a short, Pained breathe-

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“It was premeditated… Oh god, Heat…”

Rebecca had a hand over her mouth before moving over to Heat to hold him close.

“N-No matter what you may think, you didn’t deserve that. No one does. You deserve so much better. You deserve help to talk things through. I… Now that They’re gone… I think She would have told you to be strong…”

“They’re horrible people for doing this to you. You didn’t deserve it, no matter what lies they tried to stuff into your head. I… I wish more than anything for Her to be with you. You need Her right now and I don’t know how to help you like She would…

P-Please don’t say you have nothing… you have friends. Family. Luca. Me. We’re all something. Please. You don’t have nothing.”

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-He froze up for a moment. Curling his face more into the sylveons tummy.

He didn’t want to be seen. Giving a small whine as he softly sniffled. Before answering the question. The others in the room other than the pups who slept peacefully in Amy’s arms had their attention on both Rebecca and him. As he quietly shook- … N…

-He wanted to say he Was okay… But he Knew he Wasn’t.-

… I… No I’m not alright…

Sorry.

S-So sorry.

I’m not Strong-

I’m Weak. So very Weak.

Too weak.

Too Weak because Ames is Right.

I let it get to my head…

I don’t know how to make it go away…

I don’t know how to make it Disappear…..

It Hurts

It Hurts and I Want it to Go away.

Rebecca glanced at ‘Ames’ for a second before turning back to Heat.

“Heat… Hurt takes time to go away. It just doesn’t disappear all at once… Life doesn’t work like that.”

“When it comes down to it… Everyone’s weak. Everyone hurts. We all have ways of recovering. It takes time, sometimes the rest of your life, but it goes away eventually.”

Rebecca rested a gentle hand on Heat’s shoulder, ready to pull it away if he rejected the contact.

“It’s alright that you’re weak. Life is about getting stronger from the hurt. It’s about going above and beyond what hurt you. It’s about looking back and seeing that it won’t hurt you like it used to.”

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-Heat was in the corner, Hugging his chubby sylveon. Who quietly ran his little paws over his head. Tears streaming against the peach tummy. With his knees curled up to hold Vee up against his chest. Amy, A rather tall, 4’9 pink hedgehog with bangs, wearing a red dress and boots with stitches lining to keep her mouth permanently closed, was holding his pale children on the bed. Rocking them softly in sleep, while six little riolu sat around her. Sometimes glancing over to Heat as he muttered small things.

Small, Not so very Good things-

S… So Dirty..

-He softly wheezed against fur. His senses blurred over and ears flat. Unaware of her presence.

Amy, was simply glancing up to him. As rare as it was she simply mouthed out, in a hoarse, and strained voice.-

~~That Violation has gone to your head Shadow.~~

Rebecca softly knocked on the door frame to let them know she was in here and quietly entered.

“Heat?”

The trainer approached quietly before kneeling and sitting down about five feet away from Heat to give him space.

“Heat, I know this’d be sort of a dumb question but… Are you alright?”

Rebecca peeked down the hall of the rather creepy facility, shivering a bit. Something had told her that Heat was here, a gut instinct but nothing more. She went down the hall, calling out for her friend.

“Heat? Are you in here? I need to talk to you.”

Rebecca sighed, thinking to herself.

“Why would he be in a creepy place like this…? I’ve got to stop listening to my gu-”

Crying. Rebecca heard crying. She couldn’t be sure but that voice… She ran towards it, skidding to a halt at the side of the door, peeking inside.

“Heat…?”

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-While she was in the daycare he thought about the word and the definition. He’s worn a sling before, But it was for his arm.

Blinking as he gave a shy, slightly nervous smile to Luca. And simply said-

I’m sorry.

-Only to look away and softly hug the eggs he held to his chest as he patiently waited.-

Luca huffed and licked Heat’s cheek in a way that said ‘It’s okay’. Rebecca came back out with a couple of pieces of cloth, bright red from what seemed to be embarrassment.

“I swear to Arceus if that woman makes one more goddamn comment about how I’m fuckin’ ‘naive’ I’m going to hit something. Here’s the slings.”

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?????????? May I ask what slings are?

-He blinked, looking up at her in obvious confusion. Blinking like a child who just heard a new word and was wondering if it was even a word to begin with-

“One kind of sling holds a hurt arm, the other holds babies. I’ll be right back. Luca, no more eggs for the rest of the year.”

Luca chuffed much like a laugh, still carefully holding the eggs as Rebecca went inside the Day Care building to find a couple of slings.

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Oh? Well, If it explains it better my Genetics are Mixed to take my partners way of creating life unless there’s a way for live birth to happen. Which in this case that didn’t seem to be the case. I bet the other little Std’s in my body squeezed over for them when their embryo was made.

Probably no harm though since my lower body is a bit Spacey.

All my kids take after the father for the most part, Except for an exception or two.

I’ve been experimented on Genetically and Physically for a long time I’m honestly not even surprised anymore how different the other species is.

I would list off the other species, Both Male and Female I’ve had Children with. But the most recent ones would be a Demon, a Hedgehog Bird hybrid, and a Radiation covered Hedgehog that’s ticking…

Hmm…

Have to figure out how to stop his Atoms from creating more Energy.

You know I don’t think my feline friend had a child. She told me she got into a relationship, I was really happy for her honestly.

I believe Amy’s had a few, She’s such a sweetheart. Bless her soul. Actually since the Scientists disappeared I think I can take those Stitches out without her having to worry about them putting them back in.. Maybe visit Bunnie too. I’m sure she’d appreciate the news.

-He hummed, scrolling completely off topic. Having a strange mentality, where at times he rambled like a old man. And at other times he was as clueless as a child.

Quietly forming his next moves while he was still around to do things. Besides, Helping out the other experiments didn’t sound like a bad idea.

As he nuzzled, and licked Luca’s cheek back in appreciation. Being rather careful with the eggs he was holding as well.-

Rebecca placed a gentle hand on Heat’s shoulder after hopping the fence.

“Sweetie, you lost me at ‘genetics’. How about I get you a couple slings for the eggs, okay?”

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-He didn’t resist, wrapping his arms back around her and softly petting her hair, and giving her a small kiss on the cheek as well as a nuzzle.

He didn’t want to make it worse by asking, so he didn’t.-